My Feelings of Turning 30

Count the days 

Count the years  

You turn around, 

and 30 is here    

Officially, you're an adult  

Legally, you were at 18 

Things are different now,  

there's the expectation of society

To have it all together 

To have it all figured out 

To have a great career  

To have gotten what you want

To own your own home 

To have achieved your dreams  

To have dated tons of people,

and are now with who you were meant to be

So, what happens if you don't?    

Not to say that you won't 

What if you don't meet the deadline,  

society holds you to in their minds?

It's something I think about all the time   

Something I cry about when I'm all alone

I have yet to achieve my goals,  

which makes me disappointed in myself

I don't have it all together or figured out 

I don't have a job and I still live at home

I've dated absolutely no one,   

and have yet to get what I want

People think it's for lack of trying, it's not  

When life constantly bites you in the ass,

with obstacles always thrown in your way 

It's not always easy to finish the race

In my heart I'll never feel old 

In my face I'll always look young 

In life so far I'm failing miserably,  

and forever judged by everyone

I don't care that I'm getting old,  

I care that I haven't reached my goals

All I want is to be the best version of me, 

and finally be truly happy